Back to Happy

Happy.

A word that is thrown around to express emotion, positive agreement and similar to I love you and I'm sorry...not usually expressed from the soul.

We discussed this several posts in but I feel the need to re-visit this one.

Mainly since I am happiest at this exact moment, was happy since the first light ( which today was at 6:17am)....there was a waterfall in the walls. Ha! and I continue to recognize and cherish this feeling of awareness.

Pause.

My weekly horoscope read the following:

I'm not a horoscope-r but find it amusing to pick it up from time to time. Stumbled upon mine today which read the following. Very 11:11 of it...signs are big right now for my change and everything else.

I quote:

" Life CAN be easy, Taurus, but you have to end your addiction to the uphill climb ( it's the downfall of being the zodiac's hardest working sign).....

.....on Wednesday dreamy Neptune ( a planet that is supposed to be some sort of trigger tool...not sure yet) waves its wand and gives your career a giant sprinkling of fairy dust. Your unique offerings trigger the attention of some true power players..."

Hello Andreea could this be any more....ummm, obvious. If airport personnel were to direct my flight path than maybe it could be that obvious but for now this is it. My weekly thoughts have taken me to really and truly believe that signs are all around us until it's time to get our act together and do something about them. Then they go away. Mine are still everywhere, so I'm not there yet but I am taking them, stuffing them in my pocket, breathing them in and loving what they do.

I've been struggling with this idea of: am I really doing this....I actually willingly will commit to several years of doing just this...writing, analysing, processing and thinking.

I mean come on, it's fantastic to be able to pick this up and toss it aside, use the lame 'old excuse of taking a breather and researching topics. Poke! Fine, works great for Monday - Friday @ work and play but in the real world, profs and " groups " and more of this, I'm really asking for it. Hmmm...bring it?

Back to one. I am happy. This is what I love. The way my mind feels rushing through ideas and phrases is such a high ( and I've never, swear on BA's voice, ever even tried the Real High) but I can tell you that this is better. The blood is rushing through my veins faster than the thoughts jump onto this affair we are having.

Hate to admit it but will give credit where credit is due. You were right...and you know who you are when you said to stop focusing on what others are not doing and just do me.

Look at all the goodies that have come out of telling me to be me. The discovery of an ability ....and the idea of knowledge. Rather self-centred have you but what the ****, this is me.